I just don't get it sometimes. My own shortsighted nature.

People mess up, I am a person therefore I mess up.

I go through difficult times but I always seem to freak out a little when the bad times come. You'd think by now that i'd realize that while things look hopeless now, it always has a turn around point. A point that I can look back on and see how that hard time helped me in some fashion.

And still I freak out every time?

It's tiresome to watch yourself repeat a mistake that you're aware of.

Guess it takes trust. Not trust in the idea that things work out for the better, but trust in the One who is leading me through those hard times.

That's right, I'm talkin about the Big Guy upstairs. The One who's in control, whether I like it or not.

and trust me,

I like it that way.

O, answer me!
Let me not burst in ignorance... With thoughts beyond the reaches of our souls...

I'm watching my country die.

It's rather depressing to be honest. . .

I once held the opinion that; the United States is the greatest nation ever. No other state or nation has or will come close to matching it's grandeur.
I wish i could still say the same.
But my faith in this country is no longer existent. I have faith in its capacity for grandeur, I have hope that there will be a better day. But I cannot say that i have hope or faith in this nation.

This nation, why have we faltered? We allow ourselves to be controlled by a media with a obvious agenda. Greed, they support a government system that favors them. They seek money, recognition. Regardless of party affiliation. Parties... What a joke. while there may be some politicians that still try to represent the people who have elected them, many more live for their own gain.
Maybe I sound a little bit cynical, but that is only through observation.
Ignorance IS bliss. It was much easier to believe that the elected wanted my well being when i ignored the details of their actions.

Now we have an economy, on the brink of a total crash. What are the political parties doing? creating their own monopolies. Forcing companies to take their bailout cash then slipping conditions in. Companies don't want to be nationalized. There's a reason for the private market. But the government forced companies to take the money, even those who didn't want it. The money was for their own good. Now look whats happened, big brother controls most of our banking system, one of the largest insurance agencies, most of the United States auto mobile manufacturing...

The concept of "free market" has apparently gone out of style...

I have faith and hope in something greater than this country, something better than myself. Something, Someone not restrained by the mortality and scumish tendencies of this world...

Why have a blog?
I can't say for sure. The last one i had was my xanga back in 2003 or so.

I guess for two reasons;
So i have something to look back on.

So I can organize my thoughts.

Now I'm just debating on whether or not I'll ever inform people that I have a blog...